I had been practicing my meditation each morning and building my own disciplined practice. I felt pretty good – I lived in a tiny village and went running around the beautiful South Shropshire hills, the valley I lived as a young girl with my family, I had come home. This is when my life changed dramatically. I was loving my yoga teaching and appreciating the guidance I received from my late mother’s friend and Monk, Father Silouan. But I was still stuck in my head criticizing myself, I could be so cruel to me! For some reason loving myself was just so impossible.
But in June 2007 I felt different. I felt an immense feeling like never before. I felt an inner super-power that everything was going to be okay. A reassurance from within. It was a feeling of total love and connection in my heartspace with a gushing power. For a few weeks I just couldn’t understand this strong, grounded, power as it was different to how I had ever felt before. I put it down to the committed mediation practice paying off.
And then I discovered I was pregnant! My heart melted. This feeling I had felt was the connection with the soul of my unborn child!
I felt it so early, I was so excited. My biggest dream in my life was to be a Mummy. I admit I did not think I was quite ready! But I was. I was pregnant and I had felt bliss within me before I knew! My dream was coming true and I felt blessed.
I was petrified of childbirth but I wanted a baby so much I was willing to overcome this fear, along with my fear of needles. Each blood test that was taken, instead of avoiding them, I found the strength and the breath to help make it as easy as possible. I felt so lucky throughout my pregnancy that it was all okay. There were no worries within me about my pregnancy at all. I felt different to how I thought I would feel. I imagined I would be worried or miscarriage or frightened of becoming a parent. I worked with some hypno birthing and shiatsu to help me with the fear I had of birthing.
I want to help people with my energy work reach their dreams of becoming a Mummy. To help clear the mental, physical, emotional blocks that can be caused by fears, thoughts and held emotions. To help clear what may be holding them back from feeling this amazing gift of turning from a woman into a Mummy.
The work I do is deep, we can find what lies deep and buried within your subtle body. We can get to the bottom of what is really going on. When the physical, emotional and mental bodies are all in balance things flow and we experience wellness. But often things get out of sync and we don’t know why or what we can do – we just feel “off”.
I have loved yoga for so many years because that is how I felt the euphoric feeling of the heartspace connection to my mind and my body. Feeling the Prana (life force) flowing through me was immense. My practice developed into this energy work and with the guidance I receive from the Akashic records all is flowing with so much more ease and joy. Daily practice of meditation within the Akashic records feels like it has supercharged things and I love it.
When people previously told me it’s all about “loving yourself”, I heard them – I just couldn’t do it! It may have been natural to some people to be able to love themselves but for me I had to learn how. And if any of you feel that same struggle then I would love to help you to. For me, I had to clear the blocks that were in the way and were stopping me from being able to love myself.
I keep learning how to send love to myself daily, it is a work in progress. The art of appreciating is a powerful part to get into that flow of allowing love and Prana in, so I created the facebook group for us all to practice it. Come and share with me there if you like. I post a guided meditation there each month and these are gifted to me by my work within the Akashic records.
This is a message from the records today;
“Let us help you love you,
let us show you love,
let us allow you to feel that love.
You are love!
Let our love in,
And your love out
Allow your light to shine brightly.”
Wishing you all joy, love and laughter,